2004-12-13 - 3:39 p.m.
It's so tempting.
There are lyrics BEGGING to be given.
No one reads them anyway, so it's probably not worth it.
Maybe they'll slip in, we'll see.
Months ago I banned Don from reading this diary. I can tell when he does and he hasn't, not once that I can see, since I asked him not to.
He's reread stuff I wrote at my "Donnie" diary over and over and over, but he hasn't cheated and come here.
Sweet boy.
I stopped him from reading here because I felt like I couldn't say what I needed to say without hurting him or encouraging him or somehow impacting him and I didn't want to sensor myself for his benefit.
Now we've talked (ahem.) and he's allowed back.
"Here I go again
making promises"
He went back and read every freaking page since the last time he was here.
When I started to wonder why he'd bother I realized that if the tables were turned I'd have his pages printed and be going over them like a derranged maniac.
Now before those of you who know me start saying what a bad idea this is let me just reinforce for you what a grandiose waste of time and breath that would be.
"if I tell you no
it still sounds like yes"
I know it's bad. He know's it's bad.
"You know the rest
do I have to say it?"
Telling me...useless. Maybe you should tell him.
"Well, I warned you once
but without success
and I just escape
with my heart
a mess"
I've tried. I've told him, but he won't believe me.
I'm not worth the aggrivation.
Ask J.
No, wait, bad example. He'd say I am. I dunno why.
You guys tell him, maybe he'll listen to you.
Tell him why I'm such a bad idea.
We're kinda obsessed with each other.
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